I first listened to Kanye West in 2008 when he released his album ‘808s & Heartbreaks’. I was 13 and I thought he was really cool, so cool in fact I went into town and bought a physical copy of the album which I barely ever do. Over the years he released more hits and collaborations with other big artists and quickly became a household name. Kanye is known as a fantastic producer and I believe under all the charades and craziness he projects he is a pretty nice guy.
I really do believe the negative press he receives initially took off when he began a relationship with Kim Kardashian. Love her or hate her it doesn’t really matter. From what we know he had been crazy about her for a long time and finally they got together and had some babies and have since lived the fairy tale life we all dream of. However when you put all this aside Kanye West has depression, anxiety, PTSD and most likely some sort of personality/identity disorder. Kanye West is also a celebrity which according to the public should definitely not be mixed with mental health issues.
Society claims he is delusional, struggling with a god-complex, an egomaniac and narcissistic, however these characteristics are clear signs of someone who is suffering from a mental illness and desperately crying out for help. Kanye has said and done things deemed ‘abnormal’ by society such as humiliating ‘poor’ Taylor Swift, announcing his 2020 run for President of the United States, dressing up as Jesus, publicly asking to borrow lots and lots of money, comparing himself to Picasso, supporting Trump; the list is pretty much endless. This is the outcome of someone who is way out of their depth and overwhelmed and I think Kanye is so surprised at how famous he actually is that he uses this fame as a comfort blanket to hide how much he struggles with being a celebrity.
At the end of the day Kanye is a smart guy. He is a very successful fashion designer (whether you like it or not) and producer all due to his own hard work and sacrifice. Kanye dropped out of college to pursue his music career and his album ‘College Dropout’ was a testimonial to having some balls and following your own path. He has been in the game for a long time, and has kick-started other artists careers as well as producing some pretty fantastic tunes. Kanye has never been afraid to stand out as an artist, mixing in different genres often incorporating Orchestras into his hip-hop, rap and soul hits.
As with most success, he has not always had it easy. In 2002, Kanye fell asleep at the wheel of his car from exhaustion and stress (a reoccurring theme) which was nearly fatal, his jaw had to be wired back into place. This near-death experience will have only made Kanye value life more, creating this need for him to be the best he possibly can be. From this Kanye has explored faith and his own relationship with God, allowing him to think more deeply. Perhaps he questions things so much he does not fully understand his own identity and in turn drives himself mad wondering. It has also been known that Kanye rarely sleeps, and does so only in small increments due to his ever increasing workload.
In 2007 his mother Donda West died of heart disease unexpectedly at 58. It was clear Kanye was extremely close to her and struggled immensely with her passing. I’m sure he still does nearly ten years later. Kanye soon had sporadic outbursts of anger, most famously when he attacked the paparazzi and smashed a camera. Although terrible, he was still grieving, and I feel that this is when his relationship with the media turned sour. If my mother had just died and I had people throwing cameras in my face, I would probably hit them. From this he was given community service and anger management issues. I think that when something as drastic as this happens you probably would begin to question everything. You would begin to doubt yourself over and over, he was probably not comfortable with who he was, and still isn’t. It could be suggested that from this constant questioning he almost has something to prove to himself and he can never quite live up to these expectations, hence the relentless anxious and irrational behaviour he displays.
There is being famous and there is being Kardashian famous. Kanye has always been well known in his own right, however I don’t think he expected the whole lot of ugly that came his way when he married one. I think again he was uncomfortable with all the attention she carried, even in episodes of Keeping up with the Kardashians we see him lurking in the background awkwardly. Again as a way to cover this up he used it for himself, it was the only thing he probably felt like he knew how to do whilst in her shadow. I’m not blaming Kim because he should have known what he was getting into but their personalities could not be more different. Only a few months ago Kim got held hostage at gunpoint in Paris. Again, you may not like her but if this happened to your wife I don’t think you would be laughing. Kanye has struggled with fame so much, everything bad that has ever happened to him has been so publicly documented. Now this fame has bit him on the ass due to his wealth, again endangering someone he loves. Aside from going into shock, he became anxious, withdrawn and angry. Kanye probably hasn’t slept right since with worrying. It probably didn’t help that the world were saying they deserved it. So yeah he had a bit of a breakdown, CAN YOU IMAGINE?
Having mental health issues from personal experience is definitely embarrassing on occasion and I have done everything and beyond at times to hide it. Now having all your dirty laundry aired to the whole world wouldn’t exactly make me feel much better. Everything has just got too much for Kanye and I really do sympathise with him. For years I have suffered with extreme anxiety, my mind never at rest. It’s not easy having an overactive mind and more often than not it leads to depression. All I’m thinking is that if it was Kim who had done and said all these things we hate so much, we probably wouldn’t be degrading her as much as the world has to Kanye. HE IS NOT WELL. And shame on you if you mock him. Who are you to judge someone?
Underneath all the ‘craziness’ is a guy who loves music so much it has near drove him insane. He got lost a little bit, but so does everyone. Fair enough if you don’t like what he represents or who he supports, that’s what keeps things interesting. It would be pretty boring if we were all the same and it would definitely be boring without Kanye. I really do believe that sometimes the most creative and wonderful minds are the most troubled. I hope he takes some time out and looks after himself and if he can’t do that then I hope at least he can manage his health.
All the best YEEZY XXX