I’ve always found it difficult to meditate although I know it is important to be at peace with yourself whilst eliminating stress and anything negative which may be holding yourself back from achieving things in life.
I began to look into meditation online because firstly I lucid dream on a very regular basis (almost every night) and I also believe that I had experienced from this my first OBE (out of body experience) also known as astral projection. Secondly I have heard of the health benefits meditation brings by building your immune system and how it can settle one’s mind often helping with depression, anxiety and other mental illness. However I have such a busy lifestyle I rarely have time to meditate and at night when I try to meditate before I fall asleep my head is full of absolute nonsense that I just keep myself awake. I was intrigued by my possible OBE experience and came to the understanding that many people can wilfully separate their soul from the body through meditation as well as other means.
I know it sounds all hocus pocus and many people don’t believe in this sort of spiritual stuff. It has been brought to light with popular shows like Stranger Things and films such as Insidious. It’s funny to say that although these shows are mostly likely exaggerated and created for the thrill factor, some of what you see is very relevant to my own experience and to many others who regularly astral project actually are very true to fact.
If you have never had a lucid dream or OBE let me explain to you best I can the differences and similarities between them. A lucid dream is very much when you are dreaming but your body is fully asleep and your mind is completely awake, you are aware of your surroundings and your senses are all fully functioning. However I do believe every person is different and experiences can vary for the individual. For me a lucid dream occurs around 7am in the morning, when I have just been awoken by someone else leaving the house and I am half asleep. It happens JUST before I fall back asleep. My whole body is paralysed (otherwise known as sleep paralysis) and I feel like I can’t breathe. I often feel like a force is holding me down against my will and no matter how much I try to open my eyes I cannot. This can also be known as night terrors. In my experience sometimes I hear voices but mostly it is like a loud bell ringing in my ears, which continues to only get louder and louder. Sometimes it can be like the noise of a satellite mast going off pitch. I feel like I’m shouting help but obviously my face cannot move to speak so no one can hear me. It’s absolutely terrifying and most people get this at some point in their life, however I get it every single night. The majority of people will fight this feeling like I did for a long time, and eventually you will win. It feels like your body is stuck like this for an eternity but usually it’s about 30 seconds in real time. The individual will either wake up feeling a bit terrified and go back to sleep or they will automatically fall into a lucid dream where the mind is no longer fully awake but you are now alert in your subconscious. You are in a dream and you are fully aware of this, and you can control it however you want. These dreams are great, and harmless.
The first time I managed to astral project was while I was experiencing sleep paralysis just at the part before I would go into a lucid dream. I was not intending to do this and did not expect it or fully understand it at the time. I had the usual experience of not being able to move/wake up and hearing noises however this time I felt an uncomfortable presence that I cannot describe. I heard a loud noise and a force against my body. I thought I had fallen out of my bed and woke up however I knew that I was still in bed but yet I wasn’t. Everything was really dark I couldn’t really see and everything was foggy. I was in my bedroom beside my bed but I did not feel myself. I turned around towards my bed to see my body in bed. This feeling of complete fear took over me and I could hear the sound of fast running footsteps coming up my stairs into my room and some sort of force took me out and I woke back up in my bed. I sat up that whole night shitting myself telling myself it was a really bad dream. At that time I never once questioned it to be anything more and it wasn’t until last night when I had my second OBE that I knew exactly what it was.
Last night I had been trying to meditate many different ways, through imagining colours to distract my thoughts etc. From searching different techniques online I came across a few articles on OBE and astral projection. I instantly recognised it and spent the whole night finding out as much information as I can. Turns out not everyone experiences it but you have more of a chance if you regularly lucid dream. I also came across articles on wilful astral projection which really intrigued me. I truly believed it would happen to me again in my own time however I was dying to experience it again but try to be in more control of it. So many people seem to have had really great experiences projecting whether it has been meeting a ‘spiritual teacher’ or connecting with friends who are also astral projecting. I also learned about projecting into low and high frequencies, low frequency being where one can often come into contact with malevolent bodies which is more likely if the individual is already depressed or not practised enough to project to high frequency. Anyway I was determined last night I would have one again (even though it can take months if not years of practice to make one happen through will). Tried for ages and nothing happened, I just fell asleep and had some normal dreams which I have now forgotten.
However I woke up at 7am and naturally rolled over and went back to sleep. That is when it started. I automatically went straight into sleep paralysis, I recognised it automatically and knew this was my chance to give astral projection a go. So instead of fighting it I let it take over me, I relaxed and focused on clearing my mind. The ringing got louder and louder to the point my body felt like it was vibrating, I felt so much energy it was crazy. Now this is the tricky part, most people don’t get past this stage and often just go straight into a lucid dream or wake up. Last time I did not even intend to have an OBE so I knew I had to get it right. I had learned about the ‘Rope Technique’ online where as your body has created all this energy and you begin to feel the ‘buzz’ you imagine a rope in your head that you are slowly climbing. You have to imagine exactly what it feels like and slowly move each of your hands up. Now I know many would just say “Well you were just dreaming!”. Trust me I’ve had enough experience of dreaming to know this wasn’t. I was still fully aware of everything around me. At first I din’t think anything was working, I didn’t feel a pull from anything towards my body. After a short time I felt myself rise, but it wasn’t my body it was strange. I could not see anything at all, I was in complete darkness however I knew I was no longer lying down, I was vertical above my bed. I was confused at where to go from here, I couldn’t see so began to think I must be dreaming. However slowly the darkness faded and it became foggy like the previous experience, almost as if you have to squint your eyes to see, but yet it wasn’t my physical eyes, I can’t really explain it. I knew that I wanted to move and that I would move. For some reason I could not look behind me I could only see ahead. I could see every part of my bedroom in detail, nothing out of place. In a normal dream you could think you are in your bedroom however there will be SLIGHT changes to it, e.g. lightswitch or door in different position. Everything was exact and I knew then I wasn’t dreaming. I moved out of my room and when I say moved yes it was almost like I was floating. I didn’t have a body and I wasn’t like a ghost but I was still there and I knew that. I remember going down my stairs and being able to feel the wall, I vividly remember how cold and real it felt. I don’t know how I felt the wall when I had no hands. I opened my door and before I could go out an arm blocked me from leaving. I turned around to see a white male, probably in his 60’s with white/grey hair, a black suit and hat. He was grinning at me but not in a nice way. I sensed complete evil from him, he did not want me to leave. I was absolutely terrified but I knew I had to get out. He would not let go of my arm so I decided to take him with me. With astral projection gravity isn’t really a thing so I just ‘took off’ I can’t really call it flying because I have no idea what it was. I headed down my street and the whole time I was struggling back and forwards with this man. He was pulling me back and I was pulling him forward. We said nothing to each other. I knew at this point I would be going no further. There was no one else in the street. It was dark outside even though it would probably have been starting to get light in ‘real time’. So I decided to wake up and I did. I felt drained, probably for being around that negative energy for so long. I did not go back to sleep after that because I was not prepared to go back in just yet.
I have the spent the whole day doing further research and obviously questioning my experience ‘was it real?’ Yes it was real. I know it was. I’m completely open to the debate that astral projection or OBE is just another element of dreaming or another level of the subconscious. But see if it his heck who cares its fantastic and not many people can do it. However there is so much evidence that it is real. So many stories. People can actually be trained to separate their ‘self’ from ‘body’. Monks and spiritualists have been known to dabble in it on a daily basis. I don’t believe the astral world is as simple as ‘God’ and the ‘Devil’, I don’t think anyone will truly understand it but it is real and if you are interested please do your research. Most people reading this will laugh but I really do pity those who are so close minded. Yes it takes someone with an open mind to experience this, and probably someone who is in touch with themselves on an emotional level but I think if everyone just takes a step back from their crazy lifestyles they might just discover exactly what they have been missing.
Please let me know of your experiences and what you think of astral projection in general 🙂
Re-Discovering me 